Wednesday, October 26, 2011




“……”




I have stop
Stopped
.
I will not question you again
Never
You can do whatever you want
.
I will stop thinking
Thinking makes me feel hurt
Stopped
..
I will remain quite
I will seek no answer from you
And neither do I want you to reply me
.
.
.
I will stop
But listen
Only listen
Like a dumb doll
………………………………………..

                                                                      M0RAMEE DAS
                                                                      17TH SEPT 2011
                                                                      8:00AM

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

........Delve Inside........



Thoughts
so many
are playing
a game of mess
in my mind.

I cant accept or
reject
I m too afraid,

for the conclusion
that only I have to face.

Walking in the stairs
of dilemma

I m struggling
between
love and family.

My heart says
one thing and
my head
another

I desperately
seek what
my heart says
but..............
I cant.

May be when
i grow old
i will regret
the decision
or maybe
 cherish.

Its easy
to advice
people
to follow
your heart

but very
hard to maintain
in one's case.

Lets see
what's in
store
for me......

MORAMEE DAS

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Amchang Wildlife Sanctuary: An Experience






It was a rainy morning but I loved the way it was .I remember some photographer saying that “you should experiment with any kind of weather” .I climb the bus it was around 5.30am in the morning but inside it I didn’t felt that way as it was jam-packed . People of all kinds of profession were there to start their normal livelihood. I made a space for myself and went for my journey with the music of Robert Plant in my I-pod. It reminded me of the hills, the mountains and Shangri la, although I was repeatedly disrupted by the occasional shouts of the handy-man. After a few minutes I got down on my stoppage, to get to my final destination I had to take a rickshaw to my cousin’s place as he was waiting for me .He had a pretty good idea about the place we would visit today for photography . As I climb up the rickshaw, I felt the breeze brushing my face. I relaxed until I saw the hills full of light clouds. It was so near to me and so green and beautiful which I never sensed for quite a time. But I don’t know why I resist myself by not taking a snap of it. Finally I reached my cousins place, he was ready. We headed towards the forest with essential things like water bottle, an umbrella& a packet of biscuits. The road was fine but muddy but as we reached the opening of the forest the route became uncomfortable but quite exciting. We began the actual journey here...it was a hard work for me as over the months I had gained a lot of weight, it made me exhausted in a few minutes but for him it was a daily kind of job as he usually come here to spend his time with his thoughts . I was amazed to see such density in a forest, there was large number of tree everywhere and especially in Guwahti which was on its way of claiming itself as a cosmopolitan city.

My cousin said to me:

“I think only in this part of Guwahati where you will find forest and cultivation” .And he was correct becaue when I last visited this place it was full cultivation (3--4 yrs ago) but now 2/3rd was of the cultivation area was full of houses. We kept on walking until we met a man who was brushing his teeth and asked about ourselves.

“She my cousin and we have come to take photographs”; my cousin said

I nodded with him. And the man said well “you have to take permission from the Ranger”

“Well then can we meet him” I said

“No you can’t, he sleeping”, he said

“Ok then while returning we will meet him”; I replied

“Ok then”

Now we were off, but I was little surprised because I didn’t meet anybody here when I visited last, my cousin told that this place was given a wildlife sanctuary status since 2004. I was glad to know about that I also noticed newly built houses inside the reserve which I guess was for the forest rangers. I felt really nice because Govt had taken the initiative to preserve a rare place inside a city and to keep it safe .I also heard that this place was a house for many animals and different bird species like Chiness pangolin, Slow Loris, Flying Fox, Assamese macaque, Rhesus macaque, Capped langur, Hoolock gibbon, Jungle cat, leopard cat, leopart, Elephant, wild pig, sambar, Barking deer, Porcupine,phython squirrel, Civet Cat etc. & Lesser Adjutant stork, Greater Adjutant Stork, white – backed vulture ,Slender billed Vulture, Khaleej Pheasant, Green Imperial Pigeon, Lessar Pied Hornbill, Parakeet etc. respectively . Guwatians should feel blessed to have such a heaven inside the city itself.

We proceeded further; made a semi-circle turn form our normal route until he showed me a newly built dam .I was looking curiously at it and examining its length and breadth until he showed me the next big thing. There was huge group of mountain full of clouds …which somebody will definitely mistake for Tawang and yes it was a marvelous sight to see. After appreciating the nature’s beauty we went to the Ganesh temple situated little downwards which we had to go through a nature made steps. People usually comes to worship here, this place was full of huge rocks and three to four sculpture of Ganesha is here since time unknown. A little stream of water passes through here that later on joins Bhramhaputra. Our observation was suddenly interrupted by an unusually heavy rain. One of the interesting fact was that we had one umbrella with us and no other shelter to hide our head. We thought that the rain would not last that long but we were completely wrong, its went on for 2 hours. …even though we had an umbrella, we were completely soaked in the rain that too in the middle of the forest , it was like as if we two were on expedition from the National Geographic. We hurried back home & that was an experience.

But we didn’t felt bad at least we got lots of pictures of a rainy season and I planned to stay at my cousin’s place that night to see what the next day holded for me. I was lucky as the next day was a sunny day. But today we meet with lots of obstructions: starting with the forest officials who started to threaten us. There were four men and one lady official but without their uniform. Out of the men the lady seems to be stricter and was stubbornly misusing her power.

“Yesterday you went there, without any permission, we got such a scolding from our forest ranger and you didn’t pay the charges also” she said adamantly

“But in this office there was nobody, we meet another official there” my cousin replied

“Ok then sorry for yesterday, please let me talk to the ranger”; I said

‘No, you can’t, he went to his home”

“Please give us his number”, I requested

“We cant, he keeps his mobile switch off when he in home”

“So now whom can I talk too”; I said

“You can talk to me, as I’m now in-charge”

‘I said ok then tell me what am I suppose to do now’

“The D.F.O will be coming at 2pm, you can meet him or else come day after tomorrow”

“It will not be possible for me to come tomorrow, so please give me his number, I can talk to him”

She totally denied. So at last I asked

“Tell about the charges I will pay it now”

“You are not allowed, come some other day”

She seems to be so arrogant, we thought she was showing her power, well then you keep your power with yourselves...I thought.

(But later from inner source we came to know that there is no such charges to be paid and she didn’t got any scolding from the higher officials.)

We came out disappointedly but I definitely didn’t got upset as it was a huge forest, covers around 78.68 sq. km & had different openings. So my cousin called up his friend who stayed nearby and we went through some other routes which were too difficult then before. It was very steep and we had to go through the backyards of people’s houses. I got some really nice shots there but not the “perfect picture” which I was longed for.

He felt my disappointedness, so after bidding goodbye to his friends we took another route, it was through the middle of the cultivation all greenery, cows were grazing, we were tired and the heat was rising. But after walking all about 15 kilometers a simple sound made me feel refresh and it was the sound of the water fall. We went according to the sound and came across huge trees and amidst that 3 kids were sitting in silence .We asked them to accompany us; what I notice here was the density of the trees were more that before. We also happen to meet a woodcutter on our way. As we were walking we saw the view of the fall: it was the same stream I talks about .The stream from there falls here through some huge rocks .But to reach there again we have to cross the same stream .We were tired, so prefer to rest there and what I saw there was little bunch of butterflies sitting in the rock and I suppose they were sun-bathing. They were so beautiful that it seemed like that they wore purple frocks. The amazing thing was these little butterflies didn’t fear us. They were completely with themselves. After the rest our journey was on, the boys took us to the waterfall and just imagine we were walking upward towards the fall .This boys were the inhabitants of the forest itself so they knew everything about the forest. There were big stones, we have to put off our shoes as the stones were slippery; we walked against the waterfall until we saw a cave. Those kid s began to open their clothes & bath .We clicked some amazing natural shots until we were hungry …sitting in the shade we had biscuits and water. Although the sun was really hard on us but the relaxing sound of the fall made us very relaxed .We really enjoyed with these boys, if not wrong to say they were God send .But it was too late now, we had to run home, but at the end of the day I was satisfied because I got my perfect picture.

I specially want to thanks to those officials who denied us from the entering into the forest, if they wouldn’t denied us then we can’t have this experience on the other end of the forest and I’m also sorry for them, because of such type of person our beauty of nature is being unexplored. They are being very strict to us but what about the trees that are always being cut and traded illegally in that forest itself and the case of poachers who earn millions from here. It’s a shame not only to them but to the whole society .They are giving orders without their uniform, this is not the law written in our constitution. I don’t want to blame the whole Forest Department: you people should be thanked for the care you are taking for this sanctuary but I just want you people to be beware of such officials that are serving in your department.

Moramee Das

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

“Self discovery: What I thought and what it came out to be?”



                                  “Walking through the woods
                                                 I’m stuck
                                      I’m undecided where to go.
                                      It is very dense & serene here,
                                      But a sense of tornado is revolving inside me.
                                       I have to choose my way out
                                      A path: to be cleared only by myself
                                      No one will help me here.
                                      I’m alone and will have to do all by myself
                                      A path that will make my future secure…


                                      …………..And I’m out for that search”!!!



**Dedicated to people who is in the struggling situation like me: we will sure have “our time”: just relax {apart from struggling} & enjoy this status of “Bekar India” a.k.a “Educated Unemployment”. (Wink Wink)**

The phase I’m going through is the real moment of my self-discovery and as I’m struggling with my life, I have come to realize practically that in a certain extent examination marks doesn’t count: all it count is how you present yourself for a particular job (I knew about it theoretically before & I used to say it to my friends thou but have practically sense it now.)

I knew people /friends of mine in school, college, university etc, who used to mug up study materials and then would pass out exams with good marks.  I  always thought: after all it’s important to be a good person .In university level I saw people getting first class specially in my subject of literature, some by hard work and some by licking their professors’ ass. I also came across some people who were hard working but didn’t deserve what they got. By the way I don’t know in which category I fell???? but,definitely not the ass licking one.

Sometimes I thought that what I wrote in the answer scripts was something “not usual”, although not so but I really wanted to interpret things in a different way even though I was not recognized for that (as they talk of “change” but was conservative by heart). I studied literature because I wanted to and loved because it was like an open sky: open for any kind of interpretation (although logical). What we learn & study should be applicable in our practical life and that is when it counts. I didn’t care about my marks because I didn’t want to become a lecturer. I was very casual then but I know now marks really count. I was not serious with my life until one person poked me that I really need a job otherwise what is the use of this qualification. 
 “That is true, but I really enjoyed doing my masters”; I said

Now after 1 year of my post grads I’m sitting idle, writing articles for reader’s visual enjoyment. One time I felt, just one time because I didn’t want to think about it again: that am I really worth of the marks that I got? Or maybe did I deserve more? Maybe I didn’t work hard to reach that level or was I underestimated? At that point of time I really doubted my confidence level, but only for that point. I didn’t let it overwhelmed me.

I experimented with different kind of interviews starting from lecturer’s job to sales & marketing but experiencing disappointment. Well I don’t call it disappointment but may be a kind opportunity for a better option. So I have switched my search for a few weeks to reading my old pending novels and have been posting my new write-ups. These periods is the golden period of our life, as one of my friend say: “a real moment of self-discovery”, because we are practically experimenting our skills with different kinds of avenues, we are discovering ourselves which was unknown to us …  Rather to be frustrated about or feeling depressed about, this “status” is to be enjoyed. Because after we get settled, we will get stuck in 9 to 5 job, busy schedule (although with lots of money in the bank), marriage, responsibility then blab bla bla.

Everything has its own time & I still believe Old Tirumala’s saying
                                           “Everything happens for your own good” (wink wink)


                                                                                 Moramee Das